Finally, I am HOME!

This upsets me.  Is this a real girl or is this a China Doll.  And does it matter to those who take those pictures? 

We, as people, as those of us who care about each other, we...must look after each other.  We must care for the young.  And apparently, we aren't doing so.

Are you?

I  can't do anything for this young lady.  I can only pray for her to come home to her parents, her loved ones, her...

So what?

Mary Ellen Walton - Naked!

Oh What a scandal!



I happen to think that Judy Notron-Taylor is a very attractive woman.  She was then and she is now.  That she happened to show her body in a Playboy spread, well...that was her choice.  We all have choices...she chose hers.  And I, for one, am very appreciative of that choice.

Face the facts.  She was and still is a very attractive woman.  That she chose to show all of herself in the prime of her life is a good thing. 

I am in the downside of my life.  I wouldn't ever think that a beautiful woman like that would have anything to do with me.

But I can always hope, can't I?

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• Sometimes, what we want will never come true.

Twenty Minutes...Into MY Future?

This is Twenty Minutes Into My Past.  You know, I felt something, love, at that moment in my life...I was kissing my girlfriend and I was enjoying holding her.  I haven't felt that since...it was pure, sincere, wholly love...with a little bit of sex thrown in...but this kiss, as staged as you can tell it was...I mean with the guitar and all...the kiss meant something to me.  I loved that girl at that moment in my life, I kissed her with all of my love, my passion...

And now?

Well, here we are again.  Here I am again.  I gave of myself, I worked hard and I got screwed.  And Joel would tell me that "GOD HAS BETTER THINGS FOR YOU!!!"

God doesn't hate. And I am trying hard not to HATE!  But I HATE this fucking heat, I HATE that I am unemployed AGAIN, this time through no fault of my own...I HATE that my wife is leaving me (and she's goddamned happy to do so), I HATE ME, I HATE EVERYTHING AROUND ME, AND I HATE THAT I HAVE SUCH HATE IN ME.

I'm hot and unhappy...do I Hate? 

Perhaps.